I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop


Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

im back to post, haven't had time to post lately...

we are into the 7th mth!so happy!hahas

saturday... won't say more but im very very happy camel!thx for making my day!

This holiday was fun, emo, shitty, filled with love...

the past 4 days, spent with kerlene, it was so fun, each day always ended with me smiling, im really happy that u made an effort to be with me, spend time with me. i really love u! if i had made u sad or anything im sorry...

Really, thank you for everything camel!

GIRAFFE <3 CAMEL!!!

"this holiday has been boring and mundane. it seems like everyday..."

u mean this holiday was nothing to you?watever has happened equals to nothing, nothing at all???

Current Mood: disappointed

im just being fucking selfish...

Don't you know that i miss you so much. 
My heart yearns for you everytime i think of you. 
Whole week has been stressing for me, 
i could only think that i could see you soon, 
cos you take away all the harshness of life, 
only you can make me happy. 
It's the thought of you that makes me want to go on, 
persevere, but as something else comes, haizz...

Current Mood: blah

im an idiot...

Current Mood: worried

so long never post like so freakin busy very must study...prelims next week=cannot see her... nth much just makin noise...

Current Mood: blank

okays, i've just decided to blog hahas...

hmm, so long never blog but i can only rmb past events since wed only, haizz.but nvm on a happier note, its EASTER!!!

wed, went for sch den cca den trouble started, den went to church for baptism rehearsal, i spent the time not listening but gossiping with the gals, HAHAs n i found out about so much things lor, but pls dun ask me cos i got them all mixed up, hahas.

thurs... had the holy hour, was ok almost fell asleep, rciy visiting of church, sat with francis cos she din wna sit with me... so i din eat anything for tat day cept for the miserable piece of bread. din relli sleep tat night...

friday, woke up n went for mass or service or watever u call it with kerlene, bernice, cheri, priscilla, mei yin n i saw debras family, her mum gave me the "SMILING" face, i bet she must be thinking y is shaun with so many gals... okays, den kerlene disappeared after mass n it turned out her aunt was also at mass so she went home with them. so i hopped down to ps with cheri, pris n nicole den had long john, arcade n abit of shopping. at like 4 plus, i went to bishan to meet kerlene n bernice den i saw them in their confirmation dresses, hahas kerlene was so BEAUTIFUL HAHAS. den they changed back to normal clothes n i sent kerlene home. at night, i chatted on the phone with kerlene from 8 to 12 plus, like so funny lor got so much random stuff n we were like dam high cos she was very excited about baptism the next day. 

hmm, sat... woke up late, went to church just to see kerlene leave, had bfast with the ppl, left to change at home, thomson plaza wiwith marcus bot balloons for dajies n veralene, hahas. like the balloons??? bot flowers n a card for her wrote some things hmm, den was baptism, saw old pri frens like dexter n aaron. dam wierd lor paula pulled me out to intro to her gang and she was like yours truly, shaun quek, den i din know wat to say so i just said hi... den i spent the whole night taking photos n running ard church. took lots of photos, den kerlenes mum stared at me, den had supper with the same gang, den cabbed home with marcus, debra n jude. talked to kerlene on the phone for awhile den she went to sleep. i tried very hard to sleep but i couldnt so i just stoned in bed till 7am den i fell asleep. 

i was very happy but whenever i see some sad faces, i cannot help but stop smiling...

Current Mood: drained

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?
Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thought in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me

Current Mood: worried